...depressed? or is it just the stress?

...mmmmm... i don't know what to say... I'm really starting to make my life indecisive.. *sigh* argh... I'm i going to have a future? i tried to think positively, but i guess... my insanity is coming back again to hunt me... i have told myself that my life is stupid, worthless, nothing, empty... but no matter i said it over and over again.. i ended up realizing that this life is important.. that i have to treasure and use it for all i can 'coz God gave it to me...


.. i thought things are just going to be in the right place, but as time goes by... it seems i didn't noticed that it's changing slowly in the way i don't want it to be... i felt loneliness surrounds me, i guess I'm just alone in this world... i tried to put my best act of happiness.. but no matter what i do, the mask's always slips off out of my face... i can't control things in my life... i feel like, i'm engulfing myself through a midst of darkness... where i can no longer recover again...



*EH?! LOL! is this really me? or the other part of me??? hhhuuuuuwwwwwwaaa! *scared* this is just a cheesy emotional blog! lol! X3 non of this is me...>.<*